Monday, October 29, 2007

Time stands still....

S and I went this weekend to have a look at our dream come true...I mean our Home! :) Its a wonderful feeling to see your house built brick by brick....when you work hard to see it develop slowly....

S and I were standing on our bedroom balcony and enjoying the serene view and discussing our interiors and how we would go about doing soon as we stood there, just then, the fountains came up with lights and it was beautiful.....very calming to hear the sound of water gushing as we spoke about our future here....I saw it as a sign of good times to come by....and told S so....S came across and hugged me! It was a beautiful moment.....for us...and will remain etched in my memory for years to come! :)

I have understood the hard way round, that life is what you make it to be....and its within you to enjoy the present and staying positive gives positive vibes to your home too!! :)

Monday, October 22, 2007

I can live on music and love!....and very happily...

I have been watching lots of movies that influenced me a positive sense! S and I are big movie buffs, all we do on weekends since we got married is to go shopping ( which is MY passion, not his, like most women) and watch movies. SInce we moved to Pune, we go to the theatres quite often as it is pretty nearby for us.

Last weekend, we could'nt get I drove the car ( for once!) and we rented CDs and that's how we saw Hyderbad Blues 2 ( I loved the first one and was keen on watching its sequel!) and fell in love with this song. It is a song based on Raag Khamaaj. Thanks to satya's gift ( the walkman phone) I listen to this song everyday. It makes me all mushy and its a beautiful song ( if you are someone who appreciates Hindustani music, you will love it!).

Mora Saiyaan [ My lover] ( Soundtrack by the Band Fuzon in Hyderabad Blues 2)
You can also download to this song here:

Saawan Beeto Jaye Pe Harwa, Mann Mera Ghabraye
Spring is getting over my love, My heart is getting scared

Aeso Gaye Pardes Piya Tum Cheyn Humein nahin Aye
You have gone abroad/away in such a way I am not at peace

Mora Saiyaan moh sey bolay Na Mein Laakh Jatan Kar HaariLaakh Jatan Kar Haar Rahi
My lover is not talking with me I have lost after pleading so much

Mora Saiyyan Moh Say Bolay Na....

Tu Jo Nahin to Aisay Piya hum Jaisay Soona Aanganaa
When u are not there I am like an empty garden

Nain Tehaari Rah Neeharey Nainnan Ko Tarsaona
Eyes are looking out for you; don't make my eyes to suffer

Mora Saiyaan moh Say bolay Na...

Pyar Tumhain Kitna Kartay Hain Tum Yeh Samajh Nahin Pao gay
You cannot understand how much I love you...

Jab Hum Na Hongay to Peharwa Bolo Kya Tab Aao gay
Tell me darling , will you come back when I wont be there anymore?

Mora Saiyaan moh Sey Bolay Na....

As I listen to this song and many other lovely songs....I think that I could just go on with music and love....Life is so beautiful....Music has this calming effect on you that you have an aura of positive energy. Trust me, it really works!!

Another movie that I really liked was 'Signs'. I could only catch it halfway was on Zee cafe ( Manoj Night Shyamalan Festival)....a brilliant filmmaker who brings out the most beautiful emotions effortlessly in simple expressions from small kids.....I was sobbing as Mel Gibson talks to his wife and children. Though the movie deals with extra terrestrials, the underlying emotional bond between the children and their father is sooo amazing, it takes your breath away....There are lots of movies that make you feeling good at the end of of now, these two are foremost in my mind. :) Watch it if you have'nt!

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Shopping over the weekend!!!!!! :D

Carpet and Cushions!!! ...and I love it!

Thursday, October 11, 2007

"We control fifty percent of a relationship, We influence one hunder percent of it"

Totally agree with the title...I know for a fact and from experience that different people come into our lives for a reason!

Interactions with different people in the form of colleagues, friends, neighbours and even acquaintances help you to learn and unlearn, how to be and not to be sometimes, to be grateful for the things I have, to change certain unpleasant aspects of me and I could just go on...yes, every individual in our lives influence us a one hunder percent and vice versa consciously or sub-consciously, but it definitely happens!!!!
I remember when I was a little girl, my classmate sridevi once said that I dont have good lips...and my upper lip does not look nice. It made me so conscious that I would ask everyone what they thought of my lips and asked my dad, if my lips were ugly!!! Well, now I know that its something superficial and does not matter. I have learnt not to make personal comments, something I unlearned from her! When you are young, you are impressionable and certain things are indelible in your memory. You are not mature enough to choose the right influences. Of course, not that I have been a saint in school. I made fun of her and ignored her when she begged to be part of our gang in school. ( Sruti, Avanti, myself and Revathi) which i am not proud of, and am really ashamed to say this now. I don't believe that looks do not does matter but only to the point of being presentable and smartly dressed. But it is very mean to make personal there anyone who would not like to be pretty or beautiful?

When I was in the XI and XII, I became pretty close to Bharath, a very academically inclined boy. His aggressiveness towards studies and to achieve influenced me to work hard for my board exams. We used to attend accounts coaching classes after school and I still remember our late night conversations on the road, about our dreams and our future. I heard from someone that he is doing well recently. We stayed in touch on and off through college. Even his parents graciously attended my wedding. Post-wedding, I moved cities and since he is not as wired as I am, I have not been able to stay in touch.

My good friend Ashwin, is also someone I met in the tuition classes. We had a very close friendship through my college years and even after I started working. Kutty Sangita ( with whom I am still in touch and who just had a baby girl :)) , Ashwin and I had a wonderful time in group studies, tuitions and when we met each other in our homes after college or on a Sunday. I was very close to him and my world came crashing down if we fought!! :) My mom would ask me if i did'nt talk much that if i had fought with Ashwin. Unfortunately, after i got engaged, he stopped talking to me as he used to.....and I lost my confidante. He is in Singapore now, and I recently spoke to his mom. I miss him. My erstwhile best friend.

In every phase of my life, I have had wonderful close friends who have been there and we have shared a special relationship. There are times when I wonder how their life is, if they are married, successful and happy?

A friend once told me that I am like water....that shapes itself according to the container it is in....I have loads of friends.....and I can easily adapt to new surroundings. I take it as a compliment. Infact, my best friend says I am so friendly with people that there is no clear distinction between a close friend and other friends. My point is, should there be? Fact remains that although it may seem as if I am close to everyone, only close friends know the real me.

As I changed jobs, I have made amazing friends and this post is for all of them to let them know I do think about them and miss them. Special mention of Sridevi, Bharath and Ashwin is only because i am not in touch with them anymore and I am unable to. No hard feelings to others and you are indeed special to me! There are so many of you who have influenced me in a positive sense, yes tess you too!! :)

F.R.I.E.N.D.S is my all favourite show for obvious reasons!!! :) There are so many meaningful profound moments in the series that it brings a lump in my throat.

Monday, October 8, 2007

The English language!!

I am very fond of watching the way people behave, their mannerisms, their body language and how can i forget, their language! ....its very interesting and keeps me occupied when I am waiting for someone ( which I hate to!!)....on the road or when I am jus plain a kid, I had this habit of correcting random people if they make mistakes in english ( not that I was or am perfect in the language, but I am willing to learn if i make mistakes) and friends would scoff that she behaves like she is Shakespeare's sister or something!!!, I know better not to correct and my attitude is more of 'oh! whatever...'!!! When some random person sniggers or comments, you will know!!!

Times when people dont listen, they just hear in a conversation. Best example is yours truly. I am someone who talks non-stop and when I talk to friends or anyone for that matter, I have so much to say. In the bargain, I fail to listen to the other person ( which I am not proud of). A friend once told me that even if a cockroach goes by, I will have a story to relate!! Is that good or bad? I dont know....

When people say 'if suppose'? I want to say, but they are both the same!! I am itching to correct them, but I shut up as some sense prevails...

When people say 'oh! you are so childish!!' I am NOT childish, I am child-like....and No! Its not the same. Being childish is to be foolish. While someone who is child-like is someone who has the spontaneity and innocence of a child. To say you are child-like is a compliment, but to say you are childish is to call me a fool! So for people who know me personally, get the cue??

Lots of people say 'I am trying to cope up...'. Since childhood, my mom has told me some infinity times that to say 'cope up..' is wrong english and you can only cope with something...not cope up. So the minute I hear someone say 'cope up', I can visualize my mom's image in the vicinity saying ' that is wrong english'!!

Another image of S conjures up in my mind, when someone says 'lesser than'..According to him, no such term exists...ahem...well...ahem! ( I don't agree with him) He says its either 'less than' or 'lesser'...its NOT 'lesser than'... But it sure reminds me of him. Another classic observation of Mr.S is that apparently, all SOUTH Indians say 'you will look nice....' instead of 'you look nice'....really??? They add a unnecessary 'will' to every sentence...

None of us are experts in the language, but as you learn from your mistakes, you also gain confidence....not just in English anything for that matter in life, am I right? Lots of people who care, correct me when I make grammatical mistakes and I truly appreciate it...honestly I do!

Courtesy: Travel and Living

" A man who does not travel, is like someone who has read only a page in a book" - I like, I like!!!

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

For you, Amma!

This is a beautiful song from some non-descript movie in tamizh, but the song is sooo meaningful.

This is so true, amma....every word!

uyirum neeye udalum neeye uravum neeya thaaye....
than udadil sumandhu uyirai pagirndhu uruvam tharuvai neeye...
un kannil vazhiyum oru thuli podum, kadalum muzhugum thaaye...
un kaal adi mattum tharuvai thaaye.....sorgam enbadu poiyee....

vinnai padaithan, mannai padaithan ...kaatrum mazhai yum oliyum padaithan..
bhoomikku adanaal nimmadi illai........saami thavitthan! thaayai padaithan...

uyirum neeye....udalum neeye...ouravum neeye thaaye!
uyirum neeye udalum neeye uravum neeya thaaye....
than udadil sumandhu uyirai pagirndhu uruvam tharuvai neeye...
un kannil vazhiyum oru thuli podum, kadalum muzhugum thaaye...
un kaal adi mattum tharuvai thaaye.....sorgam enbadu poiyee....

For the benefit of people who don't understand tamizh...

you are life, you are my body, you are my relation Oh mother...
you have shared life, carried me inside you and created a relationship
A teardrop from your eyes can drown the sea...
let me lie down near your footsteps, heaven is a myth!

God created the sky, the earth, the air, the rain and sound
Earth was not happy , God was unhappy and finally created you Mother!

you are life, you are my body, you are my relation Oh mother...
you have shared life, carried me inside you and created a relationship
A teardrop from your eyes can drown the sea...
let me lie down near your footsteps, heaven is a myth!

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

The way my mind works...

Its another Monday and I come to office with my morning blues and realize that I have a late call that night. I discuss with my manager that I skip the call for various reasons and he agrees and asks me to send updates and inform my global counterpart regarding the same....I send a e-mail and I thought that's about it!

In some time, my manager pings me that he wants to talk to me about the e-mail I sent. He was busy right now and would come and talk to me post-lunch. From that point began the intense activity in my mind......what could it be? I did double-check before I sent out that e-mail? Did it sound rude? so I reassure myself that it was not rude by consulting with my colleague-friend.....does my mind rest now?

I go on with my work and continue my daily work routine.....a colleague asks me to proof-read his email and calls me, while my mind goes on 'what did I do wrong? what and why does he want to talk to me?'. My colleague brings me back to earth from my reverie and asks if something is wrong? I smile and nod that everything is fine while my mind is in 'panic' mode....'did'nt I check enough before i sent the mail out?'

My friend pings me for lunch and I diligently carry my lunchbox to the microwave to heat it up....and while I am looking for the sauce dispenser, look for my manager if he is around.....and can't simply concentrate on the lunch conversation while we eat....

Post lunch, we go for a walk and get back hurriedly lest my manager comes to my desk and can't find me? I won't know what the matter is?? I come back and can't stop myself from pinging my manager if I can come to his desk to discuss about the e-mail. He replies that he is in a meeting and he himself will come post-lunch!!! I am thinking, but it IS post-lunch??!! But he means post his lunch!! :)

So the clock ticks loudly in my mind and I check the computer time almost every minute!!! Finally, he does come and puts an end to the suspense!! Its nothing that kept me worried for almost the entire day!!! I heave a huge sigh of relief and laugh at my own stupidity and calm myself this time, I have already run the conversation in my mind numerous times and have thought of the various possibilities and devise my 'defense mechanism'!!!

Am i paranoid or what? Does any of your minds work this way??!!