Monday, January 15, 2007

I am all excited!

Ohhhhhhh I just can’t express how happy I am….and cant stop pinching myself to ensure that am not dreaming! I am the proud owner of a super hi-fi, sleek laptop and I already am madly in love with her. I have always wanted to have a laptop, makes me feel all important and nice! I am sure I sound silly and maybe materialistic? Well, I guess I am!!! J . I love S with all my heart and thank God for him everyday. I love the way he is soo genuinely happy for my small successes and is forever looking for small ways to see me happy. When I see him, I am bursting with love that I cant contain myself.

‘Happiness is a state of mind’. This is something I totally agree with… Coz I am like a switch that goes on and off on a click. I can be all happy one minute and become all sad next minute and come to happy mode in a few minutes….Wow! You say? He he … I know… ;-)

I am reading a 1000 page book, titled ‘Shantaram’. It has been written by a person called Gregory David Roberts, who is an escaped convict from Australia. He has taken 13 times to write this book, which details his entire life in India and his experiences in India, his emotions , pain and lots of experiences in detail. Hats off to that man! When you read the book, you realize what insipid lives we live and complain about trivial issues and grumble in life about lack of luxuries when there are other people who live a life of torture, pain, hunger and that too in miserable circumstances. My experiences and pain paled in comparison.

I have a laptop!!!!! :D …and its all mine!!!!! :D :D :D…She is like my personal hi-tech diary who sings, talks and clicks pictures too.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Introspection Time!

We humans are an interesting lot, are'nt we? A myriad of emotions !Its an emotional roller coaster ride. I am so amused by how people behave, react and talk and what makes them say the things they say and do the things they do.. Personally, I am an emphatic person, not afraid in any sense to speak my mind, either at work or in my personal life. Sometimes, it has landed me in trouble and am branded as "arrogant". Any sane person would learn from their mistakes and maintain silence. Be warned, am not the type who voices her opinion about anything and everything... I speak my mind when required, while someone though wanting to say something would not, due to fear of being judged, fear of acceptance or any reason. I have never ever been like that. Always the one to ask questions in class, college, workplace. I cannot do something for the sake of doing it. I must know why I am doing it. That is the way it should be! I am proud of the way I am...its not arrogance, its called CONFIDENCE! Any insecurity or fear stems from lack of confidence. I am not being judgemental, but the way an individual shapes up is immensely dependent on how s/he has been brought up, surroundings and many other influencing factors at an early age. I have the benefit of a secure home,loving parents and a happy childhood. But there are others, who have grown in fear of someone or something and end up being insecure about everything and everyone....So I am one of those blessed souls! You learn very important lessons in life when you ask the pertinent Question - WHY? Introspection is something all of us must do periodically in our lives. There are times, when I have said something in anger, without giving some thought to it and regret it badly at a later point of time. Maybe, If I had been calmer, I would not have hurt someone, had a good relationship.... Now! When I get angry, I simply dont utter a word. I just keep quiet or divert myself with something else. It has helped! Anger is an emotion which is so strong that it is uncontrollable. The day you learn to control your emotions like a switch, you are no longer human, you are DIVINE! ;-) I am angry diverting myself with a post on the blog!! :-) Welcome to the world of