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Friday, June 8, 2007

I am currently in a state of morbid fear about what is gonna happen...like there is a time bomb and I have to save myself or something! I feign indifference when friends or loved ones ask me what the problem is...but heart of hearts, I hate to admit that I am forever worried!

Nowadays, I have the most wierd dreams and I get up in the wrong side of the bed on most mornings! Life itself is wierd sometimes....am sorry about this woeful post but i need a vent...and am not comfortable talking about it to anyone either. Wish I had a magic wand or something, and I could brush away all the unwanted thoughts and things in my life. I guess that's why I like these 'ugly duckling turns swan' and 'rags to riches' movies.

I have my good moments too....i guess that is what keeps me going... it could be a thoughtful gesture from S or a long chat with amma or a kind word from a friend...or even to see the plants flowering in my teeny weeny garden! :) Life is one big puzzle...who knows what happiness lies hidden somewhere??!! I just need the patience, intelligence and positivity to wait for it to unravel itself....

7 comments:

Revathi said...

It is probably this fear that keeps us determined and succeed in life as well. Unfortunately, when we are not challenged enough, this energy doesn't know how to take form and becomes fear...my postulate:)

Pretty Woman said...

yup! revathi you are right! like you say sometimes you are clueless about what to do...and u end up fearing...totally agree with you on that! :)

Raison d'etre said...

Hey pretty woman..u say just the things that keep rushing thru my mind often..you mirror my thoughts..ur gifted dear!!

Pretty Woman said...

hey raisn d'etre
I guess the fact that we think alike and bond well is what brought us together in the first place!! :)

Glimps said...

Hey...sometimes, it is better to talk to someone and get the fear out of your way.... Your blog is as good a place to begin as anyother!!!! Don't be pertrubed by the sad note in your post... It happens to the most optimistic of us.... And cheer up! You know u have friends who would always lend u an ear.....

Raaga said...

I agree, talk about stuff and your fears will disappear.

Pretty Woman said...

hey glimps and raaga!

i know i have good friends like you...I can lean on when i am feeling down...and definitely vice versa! :)