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Friday, April 13, 2007

What's with me??

I am very angry with myself….for a lot of reasons….for wallowing in self-pity, for not pushing myself enough, for feeling this discontentment, for being dependent on someone for happiness, for being ms.sunshine and ms.gloomy alternately, for crying, for sadness, for anger, for giving up often, for being undiplomatic, for longing, for dreaming, for being lazy, for feeling saturated, for my temper, for being impulsive…looks like this list will never end… the bottomline is I am not in the best of moods intermittently....No! I am not moody!!

I proudly proclaim myself as someone who is self-motivated in my resume, which is true when it comes to my professional life. I don't need someone to goad me to do anything, for that matter. But, personally its a different story. Everything starts with sudden spurts of enthusiasm and then fades away...I made a post long back that I want to learn dance with so much spirit in me...but I never did anything about it. WHY?? what is stopping me?? There are so many other things like that I have wanted to...and for some reason, don't! Why do I need someone to goad me or motivate me? Why don't I have the inclination, spirit or the 'fire' in me? I am bored easily, as well...my attention span is very short, and I am restless...

I am hoping I have at least started acknowledging it. I hope to do something about 'ME' soon...

4 comments:

Raaga said...

I face problems with my attention span as well... but I am working at them... procrastination is not a virtue :)

Ritu said...

Sometimes we are too hard on ourselves....aren't we? Its perfectly normal to feel this way on our bad days... Coz we do have our good days too... Life is always about finding the silver lining...

I was an eternal optimist. Things went awry for a while but I am back now. It just takes a lil focus J. You can do it.

Chinku said...

Hey! Let me tell you, when you identify a problem you are closer to the solution than you thin you are!!! Am not kidding!!! All I can say is don't force yourself to do something you want to do, just to prove a point in life... If there is a smile on your face try and wear it the whole day...
If it is a bad mood then stomach it!!! We are not given choices, neither are we allowed to ignore things because you never know when where and around which corner the suprise will be!!!
Stay cheerful always!!!
Hugs from me...

Pretty Woman said...

@ raaga
I totally agree..

@ ritu
thank you for the encouraging works

@ chinku
life is indeed full of surprises - both good as well as bad...

thank you all for the good words...am doing good..back to my grinning self!! :D